Emotions have taken over me...

I just cried my balls out to Mr. JB, as soon as he woke up from his nap. Poor thing. He didn't even know what was waiting for him as he was slowly trying to snap out of his nap.

I just saw my cousin on facebook and started talking to him about his situation and our wedding. And he made me cry. Well, okay, he didn't MAKE me cry. I just cried. A little background: this is my boy cousin that I'm close to. He's my mom's sister's son. We (all my mom's siblings and their children) all lived together and we grew up like each other's brothers/sisters.

Well, he and his wife are currently living at an in-law in DC. And because of the recent financial situations across the globe, his landlord's children are no longer able to help pay the mortgage. And his landlord basically asked them to move upstairs for almost twice the amount of rent my cousins are currently paying, so that they (the landlords) can live downstairs. Well, of course they don't want to pay double the rent. So, the landlord basically said, we're moving downstairs and we think it'd be best if you find a place. And you have until June.

So, my cousins thought: why pay for someone else's mortgage when we can get our own place? So, they started looking for a place. And you're probably wondering right now what this all has to do with me, right? Well...for them to get their own place, they have to use every penny that they have, right? And guess what? They haven't bought their air tickets to go to our wedding just yet cuz they were trying to figure things out with their vacation time. So, that means ... they're going to be using the money they saved to go to our wedding. Yeap. That means....they are no longer going to our wedding.

Of course, I'm totally bummed out and upset. I couldn't help myself. I mean, I understand where he's coming from -- an opportunity to own your own place! I'm totally happy for him. Believe me. This is a very exciting time for him and his wife. I totally understand. BUT I guess I'm also being selfish. How can he use the money he saved to go to our wedding? He said they were going to go for sure!!!

I don't know why I cried my balls out. I mean, it's not like i don't understand their situation. I totally do. I guess I'm more hurt because I think of him as one of the members of our family -- he's truly like a brother to me. And his wife and I became close after the front I gave her too. ha ha. How can someone I love dearly just deny the opportunity to see me on my special day?? Maybe I'm being selfish. I probably am. BUT he said!!!

:sob sob sob

Oh, to top it off, he said something like: "you know you're my favorite cousin". I said: "you're just saying that" and he said: "no I really meant it". That punk!! I don't even think he knows that he made me cry my balls out. ha ha.